lost of a light

In the beginning of college, i new what i wanted to do, i knew that i wanted to make a difference in the world,even if i just touched one person that's all i wanted to do. But know it seems like i was not meant to do anything to help my self or people. I know that i should not feel like this because everyone has a reason to do something but that light i once had, has went away, and not all on its own either. People have helped it and to be honest i don't think they give a rats ass. Professors at Saint Augustine's College have forgotten the fact that they once was us just in different colleges, and different professors. I know longer feel as though an HBCU will do anything for me accept stress me out even more and give me a heart attack before i turn 23. It is a shame that HBCU no longer hold the title they once held. So many people have died to make it possible for African American people to have something like this and now there is no point to even going to an HBCU, because you will not get the education you need. They only thing they are good for is taking your money, and teaching you how to kiss ass to get what you want. Yes i know this is harsh but this is the real deal. I am 22 years old and can honestly say if i had to redo my college years it would not be at an HBCU. I hate the fact that i cant stand the professors that work at my school, but they make it so unreal. To stop some one from getting ahead in life all because i refuse to kiss you ass is unbelievable to me. My light is gone, i know longer see the reason, but i would like to think a certain professor for making me see that you have to kiss ass in order to achieve things.